44. 45

Just wondering why a 45 year old is still expected to look as she did when she was 20? Why she is expected, at 40, 45, to take up athletics and exercise when always she hated sweating (repulsive) her entire life. When she has been married for 20 years and that is supposed to be an accomplishment (?) and has 2 kids, which requires a certain something in my opinion.

I am glad for Marie Osmond that after having 25 kids she was able to become svelte and tv-ready again. After her divorce. But I am not interested in being on camera or being in public or even being around people very often.

Whatever happened to being middle aged, a matron, an old person who can’t really compete with 20 year olds in the looks category. In fact when I was 20 I couldn’t compete with beautiful 20 year olds anyways, why should there be all this pressure now?

Seems like accepting yourself as you are without buying the flub weights, the under eye circle creams, the exercise gear, the diet plans is about as radical as it gets these days. Some things are wrong with me that I didn’t even know were wrong until recently.

Why can’t we be allowed to just accept certain things? Inevitable things, without guilt and with complacency? Isn’t this what contentment actually is?

4/7/11