29. Asswaz (1) I have been thinking about writing “asswaz” for a couple of weeks now. Ever since he said he wouldn’t be friends with me on myspace because he was "jealous of how I just sat around doing nothing all day making websites". Ok just to state a few obvious facts. I do run a successful recording studio and I do have two beautiful kids. My husband also runs a separate business, which I help with. He is a record producer. The hours for a record producer are at the very least (which is the schedule he keeps) 12 hours a day 6 to 7 days a week. Now, he is not watching the kids. But as you know children don’t really require any care!!?? The websites I do to be nice. As a thing that anybody can access in the world for very little to no money. Some of my friends can’t afford the rates of a professional web site business so I put up something simple for them, as well as for us. Jealous
Asswaz has always been a very jealous person. The 1st time I met him I was in Nelson Starr’s room. People were doing whip-its (not sure of spelling) behind me while I spent a long amount of time dis-entangling Nelson’s jammed live-aid tape. I fancied myself, at the time, as having a fairly good skill at saving cassette tapes. I was pretty close and asswaz walked in, yanked the cassette out of the tape player thus breaking it and said, “so what are you a sound recording major?”. At this time he was jealous of sound recording majors. Loyal
So anyways, somehow we ended up friends. He was amusing for me and somewhat loyal. I got along fine with his girlfriend and wife, which is not always possible with guy friends. So that was good too. We started a band together and a zine. When we all got married, we were couples friends. Mostly Fine
I think everything was mostly fine while I was the big breadwinner with my minimum wage steady work. It was fine when asswaz had a better car and job than us. But the whole Dave thing was somewhat annoying. He and Dave were friends before I met either of them. But Dave came off as this calm cool and collected person. Some people call it “Robot”. Dave has extreme stamina is all I can say. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t stress out about things. But what it does mean is that he eats it and [mostly] doesn’t take it out on others. Kissass
Which brings me back to asswaz. He does seem to think he is the only one that works for a living. And I get it. I would have just as soon been a bag-lady as this. I never had career goals and the only thing I ever wanted as a kid was to have a baby or two. So I never worked past minimum wage. I didn’t work at jobs that had co-workers as much as I possibly could, never good at playing the game or kissing the ass. I wasn’t in it to be successful or rich. I married a guy who was a musician in a rock band, not a brilliant plan if you want a lot of stuff…. Hardwork
Oh but guess what, Dave did become somewhat successful and he did make some money. He worked his ass off… And at a point it became stupid for me to work my full time minimum wage job. And then we had kids- the one thing I ever wanted (that and a lot of books). Dave knew what he wanted to be and he did it. He walked the talk. He made it happen. Some luck was involved but also a LOT of hard work. His skin is so thick he does not let his well-evolved ego get in the way. He has made very good business choices and the bad ones he chalks up to experience rather than drowning in self-pity. Ah, who helped him make these decisions? They aren’t always the ones that most people would make in his situation. But so far it is ok. Mostly. Mostly Stupid
We started the studio. We personally took out 11 credit cards, 2 mortgages, 3 leases, 3 personal loans. This was mostly stupid. But we were certain we had to do it and mostly had a real basis to do it. So we just did it. It all could’ve failed but it didn’t. But did you ever hear us complaining about that debt load? We also had all our personal things going. Mortgage and car loan. We could’ve drowned under that pressure. Two kids? I hear people like asswaz complain just doing any one of these things about the pressure, the stress. Guess what? We did it all at the same time and we didn’t complain. We Are Great
Ok hooray for us. We are so great. Ha! But asswaz looks at us like we have money trees planted in our backyard. In my need for being with my kids, as to fulfill my goals, I guess I only go out after they are asleep and only if they have someone sitting downstairs in case anything happens. I would never give up my time with my kids to make more money or to go get drunk. That’s just my thing. So maybe it’s my fault that I have lost friends over this time. Because Dave isn’t here. He is working. And I will not leave my kids. Oh yeah I forgot I am just sitting around doing nothing. Not So Bad
Well the story of asswaz actually turned into the story of me and my lazy decisions. I think what the jealousy really is, is of a person knowing what they want to do and doing it. And another thing the jealousy is about, is a person knowing what they don’t want to do and then not doing it… When Dave and I hate something we are doing, we get out of it. I don’t actually hate that he has made some money, WE have made some money. It’s not so bad. What is bad is the way people treat you. 6/19/07 Bonus asswaz. There may be more. Asswazz 2 Asswaz also said he was jealous of all the myspace friends that Scott Reynolds has. Here’s the trick to that one. Scott is nice to people. He doesn’t start fights with people on the ‘space and he doesn’t constantly delete the friends and the actual account itself. You too could have myspace friends if you were NICE. We don’t expect you to be nice but don’t get jealous of people who make different decisions of how they behave than you. Take responsibility for the consequences of your actions.!! 6/19/07 | 
