25. Death

I guess I was wondering what sort of trend would remind me of turning 40 and I think I have figured it out. The theme seems to be death lately. Mostly normal deaths but quite devastating as the people go through the loss of their relatives.

I pretty much can't talk to a person without him/ her saying well my dad just died or my grandparent or my uncle. The sort of deaths that a person is sitting at the death bed and going to funerals. Not the surprising(unsurprising) drug over dose type of death or the too young type but the natural excruciating death of a loved one you need to sit with and help die.

Today we went to coffee and an old friend, Kelly, was here for her grandmother's funeral. I also just got blogged via myspace and it would seem Butch's dad died. I got bulk emailed from Rebecca as she was grieving her father's death. My friend Scott is going out to stay with his dad as he (the dad) has leukemia. Scott is very sad. Laura's grandma just died of leukemia. Debbie's husband died of leukemia as well. Tony was sitting by his uncle's death bed waiting. Dwight's dad died in a more tragic way being found drowned in his pool. Andrea's mom was sitting through her aunt's death and the procedures used to keep her alive a little longer were horrible. Steven's wife's dad died on Steven's birthday. That's 10 I can think of off the top of my head in the last couple months.

So I am going to say that at 40, people start dying, a lot more. Perhaps rather than feeling sick of it all, I should be trying to make sure I appreciate the ones that are here (which I have to say is proving quite difficult now) and not run way from them but keep trying to deal with everything.

9/28/06